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miniature oranges:)

Thursday, January 25, 2007

9:32 PM

yummy!!!
im eating some miniatured oranges
and it's like so damn sweet. yays!
but no matter how sweet it is,
in my heart, i still feel weird.
i bought lotsa sweets, lotsa choco,
trying and hoping to numb the pain i received,
but i still cant help it.

oof,
ouchies.
no one understands,
till i read peckkhee's blog,
haha, we are on the same boat!!!
yay, finally somebody understands!!
weets~

seems like a challenge to me.
but i gave up.
i couldnt stand the coldness between us,
we were ever so close, yet feels so far apart.
i hate it.
having him sitting next to me, when we are not even talking
hais, aargh.

i want back the times we had.
i want back the thoughts we shared.
i want back my soul when u took it away from me unaware.
i want back my heart, which had already brokened into a million pieces.

im free.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

9:25 PM

yahh.
im free from loving someone.
hees.
i found out something, i dont need him in my life,
without him, i can still live:)
yays, at least i know, i still have my buddies.

oh man, i sound like i just kana rejected like that.
hahs, to be frank. im not being rejected.
hahs. i didnt even tell him i like him, how to get rejected right
just that i back out from it, thats all.

lalalalas. im feeling real good right now!
just that i wna go to the beach and shout.
and maybe i would cry it all out, and it's over.
all that's left would be happy memories.
anyone wna go to the beach with me?

cried myself to bed.

8:58 PM

why am i so stupid arh!!!!
mr prem catch dongfang for improper grooming...
sian arhs!!!!
he so mean lorhs.
aiya, i hate mr prem now!!!

hais, didnt go co today
go dental.
hahs!!!
i know now, if im sad,
i will bite ian!!! yays!!!
haha:)

im not going to go for that IDIOT.
hahas, cause im not gna like anyone now.
yays!!! lalalalas~
so i just scolded the guys who are so unfortunate, bastards.
hahas, i said to them, guys are all bastards.
den ian let me bite him. hah, kinda sadistic.
so sorry people!!!

hees,
im taken for valentines day!!!
hahas. taken by.... secret!!! haha.

dental!!!

Sunday, January 21, 2007

7:23 PM

went for dental appointment today.
im alright!!!
starting to get use to the life in braces.
woots.
getting those funny funny stuffs stuck in your teeths.
hehe. but so what? im going to get real nice and pretty teeth
in 2 years time!!!
it's kinda long though.. **weeps**

wees.

Friday, January 19, 2007

7:15 PM

it's friday!!!
celebrated yanjun's birthday today.
hahas, i guess she is very touched bah.
hehe
but alot of people never go lorhs.
so sad.
hais,, anyway,
i received a letter from zhao hengbo!!!
hehes, his chinese words are like wow.
hahas, and so, im expected to write back...
but i dont know how...
but im just elated larhs.
imagine when u received a letter from someone in china...
hahas, and is someone whom u had only met for like twice.
yeahh, although i hated him for snapping my pictures secretly that time.
but hey, i've forgotten about it liao.
we are best friends!!!
finally i can find someone to confide to
and he cant even leak out my secret
yays!!!
hahas, he might be coming to singapore this year...
hees.
im like so gna write back cause i had long wish for a penpal.
hees.
so if i ever go to yixing, he said that he would guide me and treat me to
BIG SUMPTUOUS MEALS!!!
hehe. happy **wide grinns**

pooff.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

8:52 PM

very long never blog liao
yeahh, many thinggs happen in school
we have a new comer in my class, she is called
melanie leong
she is from malaysia and she is real good
she is 16 this year too, whis make her the 2nd oldest in class
anyway, had spot check today
quickly pass my phone to mr ong,
phew!!! heng arhs
mr ho commented that siying and i have the worst grooming in class
and i was like, aarrrgh.
hate him to bitts!!!
guess what, he and my biggest sis is same class for 3 years...
hahas, p1 to 3... hahas, same as miss tayhuifen

i did my homework okaes???
hahas, im a good girl now.
and ya, i think i like someone now,
but i duno who is it...
cause sometimes, i really hate him.

hahas, tuesday, 16 january
i went to watch project superstar
with jordan and peeps.
hahas, we watch halfway jiu go off le,
cause it will end till kinda late.
poof anyways, it was a fun time.

wednesday,17 january
i nearly puked. because i was running 2.4
and i didnt eat 2 meals.
hais, someone care about me???

ohya!!! big issue happen today.
im really not happy with elena,
oh, she maligned me and ask me to change my attitude
aaargh, im gna burst soon.

school

Saturday, January 06, 2007

7:35 PM

school life sucks
sucks big time
especially when you were being caught by someone who once treated you so well
and just for a packet of biscuits which i dun think is the reason
so now that mr prem caught yanjun and i with 2 packet of biscuits that mr ong give us
in the school hall,
so now, he assumes that we are gna eat when i swear that im not going too
so he is now controlling yanjun and my circle of friends
im now not suppose to meet with aaron, andy and benjamin
cause aaron just got grooming problem
den benjamin tio suspended from class for a day
and andy, the whole discipline comm is keeping a close watch at him
so now, if ever mr prem sees yanjun and i with them, no matter what case they get in,
we would be dragged into it too, he dun even care if we are innocent.
this is like so sickening larhs
and aaron, andy and bejamin are my best friends lorhs.
how can i just ignore them???
how could i?

so yahh, school starts.
saw him :)))
so happy, but he havent been talking to me straight in the eye
and our conversations dont last for more than 3o seconds.
so, i dont know why, i told ian about what happened.
and i cried while talking..
maybe i just couldnt forget the promises he made
the feeling of him being beside me
my heart is feeling so ; sour.
我很想忘记你
但是不能忘记你
世界上最大的痛苦是喜欢一个人但他永远都不知道你的感受
彼此相爱但又不能在一起
为什么你要在我生命中出现？
就算我有多么的恨你，讨厌你，我都不能把我心中对你的爱改变

new year resolutions :)

Monday, January 01, 2007

4:48 PM

ate steamboat today...
eat little bit jiu full le...
duno why, it's new year.

can i just put the past behind and just live normally
im gna strive next year...
i wna do better in my studies.
i was motivated by chew weitong
who says im gna die in that class...
i will study next year!!! i will.

hais, how will life be in sec 3??
**ponders**
but i will study,
hahas, i will be real friendly
cause in 3i, it seems like im back to nursery
have to know new friends again...
duno whether am i suppose to thank him or be angry with him...

poof,
anyways,
im feeling real bad,
it seems like a knife just peirced through my heart
it's seems like an open heart surgery without anesthetic.

i want you to be by my side,
and yet you are not,
i want you be by me during my darkest moments,
and yet you are not,
why must you appear in my life,
i could feel your name engraved on my heart,
so faint yet so clear,
so near yet so far,

dont make me think of you
because whenever i think of you,
i remembered the fun times we had together,
the feeling you gave me, ever so heart warming
but now, it's gone,
the way you are treating me now ; cold.
dont do this to me,
i dont deserve it...
please ; i beg u
feeling so miserable and no one can ever understand,
it seems like im speaking a language,
you dont understand and never wna understand.
why must you make me feel like that,
would it be great if i face the world with my real self?
but what exactly is myself?
perhaps, i have already lost this battle; i had lost my soul.

new year resolutions?
study hard
be myself.
perhaps, throw the past behind,still trying ever so hard,
be with you ♥

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